Please help me keep my focus on you during this time of prayer and fasting. My mind wanders and drifts. It keep returning to dig at my pain. I want to focus on You, Lord. I want to focus on Your will for my life. In want to focus on the joy You will bring me when I follow Your will.
Lord, I am so unworthy. I am a sinner, I need Your grace and mercy. Please bless me with Your righteousness, without it I am doomed. I am such a hypocrite, Lord. I put my relationship ahead of You, I made him my god because I made not being alone my god. I am so tired of being alone. Lord. I am sio tired of being lonely, I stumbled, I sinned against You. I am so sorry. Lord, if I could change my behavior, I would. If there was something I could do to make it up to You, I would. But I know there is no way for me, a sinner, to earn Your favor. I need Your love and grace and mercy. I need Your forgiveness. Lord, I submit to Your will. Please show me Your will.
Lord, I also pray for health and healing of my loved ones. I pray for Becky and little Benjamin. I pray for my parents and my children. I pray for their physical and mental wholeness and happiness. Lord, I pray for my friends. I pray that they know You and walk in close communion with You. Lord, You know all the prayers of my heart, even those I cannot put voice to. Please Lord, grant me these petitions.